So it's a new year again, a time for optimism and a fresh start. I really feel like I'm in a good place right now and I'm going to make a lot of positive changes this year. I know I've said this before and it hasn't panned out that well, but I truly think it could work this time. I've done a lot of soul searching in the last year and even though I've had ups and downs (as everyone does), I feel like I've come out with a better sense of self. I've been smoking weed almost every night lately and you can shame me all day for being a 'pot head' but it really does open your mind and conscious. It's a great stress relief and is great for reflection. There nothing better than coming home and lighting my candles and incense and smoking a bowl. Yes, I'm a total hippie and it's amazing. Its really helped my depression too since I've been smoking regularly. I have clarity on what it is a need to do and I feel like it's finally the time I improve my life.
As most new years goals tend to be, health is a big thing for me this year. Last year I had pretty good success with getting healthier and losing almost 50lbs. I haven't been as good since the beginning of November and gained around 10lbs but I'm not going to let that slow down my goals. I've re-watched a couple of my favorite health documentaries, including Food Matters and Fat, Sick and Nearly Dead and have also got my parents to watch and be on board for this healthy new year. I'm definitely planning on doing a fresh juice fast in a few weeks that I'm very excited about. I wanted to do it in August but a friend was in town and we were going out a lot and the timing just wasn't right. I'm going to try it for 10 days and then if it goes well, I'm going to try and go for 30 days. Once I'm finished with the fast where I make fresh fruit and vegetable juices with a juicer, it will detox my body and retrain my brain and taste buds to want healthy foods. Then it will be a diet of mostly fruits, vegetables, nuts, beans and seeds. I'm going to allow myself two meals a week to indulge in what I want, but I think eventually I won't need those meals twice a week but maybe only once a week, or once a month. I'm going to start working out at home again, I still workout doing weight training with my personal trainer but I want to start including cardio and stretching and maybe try yoga again. Then in spring when the weather is better, I can't wait to go for walks and hikes outside. Then in June when my contract with my personal trainer is done, I'm probably going to go somewhere else so I can challenge myself more. I've been with my personal trainer for almost two years and they have helped me a lot, but only working out with them twice a week for 15 minutes doing weight training isn't going to get me to my ultimate goal. So while it served it purpose, I think I'm ready to move on come June. I want to be super fit and healthy and I'm ready to take on that challenge this year.
Also in the works, I plan on changing my job situation. I think what I've settled on is that I'm going to try and get nationally certified as a pharmacy technician that way I can try and get a job at a hospital where I can work full time and make more money and get benefits. Working in a retail pharmacy for over three years now, I think it shouldn't be too difficult but we'll see. I didn't think I wanted to go much further with pharmacy because I'm very against how over medicated everyone is these days, but if I can get a job at a hospital and save a lot of money then I can finally go to makeup school and ultimately move to California.
So here is too a positive year. I know there will be challenges ahead, but I hope I can handle them understanding and an open mind.